Whoosh!!! Guess what i'm erm so coming back to blogging(ironically)

Okay i have been out of ideas of what should i post after all this while.  I post it because my post was like already kind of rusty. My friend who seems to just follow my blog or what so ever giving a lot of remarks. They urged me to post something at least. Okay i came out with the idea of me being a guy which started college just recently i meant May'10. Now is like august 16th already. I am currently on full business course basis. I am gonna graduate as a diploma holder erm another 2 and a half year i think. Means 2012. I am seriously weak in calculating haha. You guys can help me to recount it then haha. I remembered back then when my uncle used to scold me and criticized me about my knowledge on maths. I was like so! I don't give a damn about maths. I'm only into languages subjects such as English and Malay. But guess what i only get minimum grades for my favorite subs in SPM and i am such a loser i grade myself that way honestly. Most of my friends get better i mean way better compared to mine. I am a little upset and  can't accept the fact that i'm getting lessen grades. But one thing for sure i should be grateful with what i have. I learn it from a friend. His name is Victor. And the word for it is 'GRATITUDE'. Just move on then. Thank god my mum accept my results without any doubts and nagging. Okay to me my mum is everything man. She is important to me even though when my dad was around. For your knowledge,my dad left us and the world when i am 16years old. My mum still hold grudge on my dad sometimes for what he and his family did to us when my mum was still in her teenage years. Honestly though my surname is 'Hong' i don't have any or what should i say bond relationship with the Hongs. They don't even treat us as of the Hongs too though. After my dad had already passed away. It take times for them to even bother to call us to ask for any concern and it really hurts. Most of my friend thought that i came from a good well-being so-called family background but in fact it is the other way around. Okay enough with that. Until now i still felt the loss. But we have to move on. My dad is happy at another world i think. Spritual world i think. But we will never find out lol. But who knows i might got the ability to talk to the dead ones hehe. Okay enough with the nonsense. Now to my college and daily life. But who cares about your personal life but its different when it is transcript in a blog. Hehe. I have been lost contact to kenn already. Even i can't recalled when is the last time we seen each other. And Yeshua is busy studying for his exam. He told me that form 6 is tough and i can see that even though he don't need to prove it. And Tinee where are you? And erm Joemun. I have kept this for a while. Actually i like you a lot. I wanted to date you that badly. But i can fell the ignorance sense that you are giving to me. But i can understand that you're into studies i should not be that selfish by claiming my love to you at this stage and you won't even bother to view my blog so i can express it here then. But after a long thoughts for the past few months. I think its the best option that we stay as friends. And lastly victor. He is one my best friend. I can ranked him on my list though. He stay first. But the problem is that we have different interest lol. But ironically we can still interact even though we don't have anything to share. And i am facing you whole day and presently. College and etc. I got one thing which bear in my mind for so long,mind change your attidude a bit which is temperamental and you are too serious at times when doing something. You do over-react at times. But sorry for offending. I dont mean it,i am just expressing my thoughts about it and erm thats all at present . GUYS PEACE!!!